"4t shades of ugly"

This one came about during conversation with my mate Mr Mac. we were talking about art and artists ect and talking about organic art referencing to Jackson Pollock, who is well known for his "splat paintings" and one of my favorite artists...anyways I showed Mr Mac. my most recent piece "Garden in his delerious dream" and got talking how it took a very short time but came with such ease and felt purposeful whilst doing  it wasn't just random.
So while I was doing this with the majority in my head I also had some thoughts flowing around like wine in a glass before a tasteing, I was thinking how tired I was feeling after getting home at 5am sleeping for 4 hours getting up for a bit then sleeping for another 2...and i was thinking how in the past I have done a lot of my writing scetching and painting either fatigued, depressed or when there was just general friction in life and it made me think of creation and whether the Great I AM did his creating in similar circumstances say after the fall....I was also thinking about societies fetsish with perfection and how much bullshit there is to do with aiming for pefection where with quite a large possiblity of becoming more imperfect in it's quest, as Brad Pitt said whilst portraying Tyler Durton in the film Fight Club "self improvement is masterbation"...then I thought of society being like  Frankenstien's modern monster both feared and loved by it's creator...

...so with all thst swimming around I came up with the following which is sort of  a self portrait yet not, the title came from work the other when a collegue said "who put you on the gate" and I repied with "well it's not my fault I'm forty shades of ugly"...

Once again I have gone over a previous picture "Rocket Horse"...it seemed to umm processed and un-natural...I also gave multiple shots to just give different perspective etc and it was still wet all the paint was applied whilst the other layers were still wet...